Wednesday, January 14, 2009

A Post Without A Title


If only we started the process 6 months earlier...the wait for a referral would've been around 3 months instead of 7 1/2.
If only we got our referral about 4 months earlier...the wait for court would've been 5 weeks instead of 13 weeks.
Although, I know if this was the case, we wouldn't be bringing home M.

If you know me, please don't tell me to be patient, to think positive, that I will forget about this wait once M is home, that it is all part of God's plan...because I'm hanging on by a thread, I will never forget this wait, and I know God doesn't want orphans in the world and doesn't want M to wait any longer than she has to. She has a home and she needs to be home.

Ethiopia adoption (international adoption) is ever changing and we (and many others) are caught in the middle.

19 comments:

angie said...

God does have a plan in all this craziness...but, that dosen't always make it any easier. i don't want people to consol me and try to find positive things to say. i just want them to say...
THIS STINKS!!!!

sorry for the rant :)

sarah said...

This post made me sad. I can't imagine how hard it would be to have a family member away from you, to not be able to hold her and comfort her. I won't tell you to be patient or that it's all happening for a reason, but I will tell you that you should at least know what a great example you are to me (and I'm sure lots and lots of other people).

Erin and Keith Sager said...

Girl Im with you, never would I imagine this wait to be so long and so hard, each day I feel we are a little closer and then truely we are one step back...All I can say is I feel your heart ache..

Heather said...

Waiting on our kids is hard. It's really, really hard.

Hang in there.

April said...

Hi Autumn,
I am so with you. I just sent you a message a few minutes ago, before checking your blog. I'm really having a hard time too. I sure wish we lived closer to each other so we could talk about this. I'm really afraid that we are not going to get a court date until some time in April. That is sooo far away. I'm trying to keep positive, and focus on our potential travel plans-which is a way to make it all more concrete-but it's not working. Our baby girl turned 3 months a few days ago, and it will probably be more that 3 months before we ever get to hold her in our arms. It is just really hard. My heart is with you. I wish I had the power to change things.

Blog Shmog said...

Sorry you are having a hard time. :( The waiting really blows...

Elisha said...

Hiya...I will second the last post...the waiting really blows. You can sit and be cranky and that is okay you are entitled! BUT I am so glad that M is not going to be in an orphanage for another year or longer with no mother to go home to. It is just like the pangs of childbirth. The pain ushers in the joy and you wouldn't want to trade that for anything. Praying that the time goes by quickly.

Fine family said...

This Sticks!!! We won't forget but we will have them home someday... Hold on we are getting closer just breath that's what I am trying to do :o( I am so afraid about passing court I'm not sure I will be able to wait again????

Christi said...

It would be really weird if this wait wasn't this emotionally draining for you. I think you are right...God hates that she's not in your arms right now. He understands your sorrow more that any of us ever will.

Missy said...

I'm sorry. It's hard to have the timeline change once you are already into it!! It's one thing to know the wait is that long to begin with, but it sure sucks to have it change part-way thru!!

Mama Papaya said...

You know how when you are at the park and you look down for one second, only to look up and the briefest of seconds, a millisecond maybe, not know where your child is. The panic, the fear, the anger, the terror. It is like that. Only for months. And your child isn't just outside your field of vision. They are over 8,000 miles away.

That is how I explained it to people who hadn't or weren't living the wait. I never found a better way. I don't think I ever will. It is awful.

Thinking of you. Thinking of M. Wishing you were together.

Eryn said...

Hang in there, Autumn. Praying the days go quickly! Eryn

Becky said...

I have been following your blog and will wait 14 weeks until our court date. I am so with you on this one! It makes me so mad and I don't want anyone telling me it will all work out...at this point I am not waiting patiently. I look forward to following your travels and hopefully I will be traveling after you if all goes well in court!

courtney rose said...

I was just saying the same thing today....

You and yours are in my thoughts. Really and truly.

dad-gramps said...

I'm so glad to see all the support from so many loving friends. You are blessed in this journey and blessed because of it. . . You have always had my heart and my support as well. I will use my emotions at the moment of your pain to only say I'm so sorry on how hard this has been on you and as a father I only wish I could hug your hurt away. You have to consider that being done right now for you. . . LOVE TO ALL.

Erica said...

I won't tell you anything but that I'm praying. That I know it STINKS! I do remember this wait. It was the HARDEST of all! Even though for us it was the shortest it was the absolute hardest wait of the process. I'm leaving Friday - I plan to kiss all the babies at HOH and tell them that their mama's are coming.

Praying you get through court the first time and travel quickly!

Ted and Lori said...

This has always been the hardest part: between referral and court. Hoping you sleep well tonight and that tomorrow brings you one day closer to M.

Justine said...

We're at that 7 1/2 month wait for a referral mark and I am terrified of the next step. I have felt every moment of this wait and have a hard time believing it will all wash away. I am not sure what to say other than you are not alone and we're praying for you to get over to baby M. as fast as possible.

Cloverland Farm said...

how i can relate to this post!